I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately. Everything seems to be moving so fast. I think adulthood is forcing me into it’s clutches and I can’t deal with it. I interviewed for a new teaching residency a few weeks ago out of some glimmer of hope that I’d land a nice little gig out of college. The same company just hired me as a teaching assistant over the summer, but the residency seems to be even more intensive the that.
I got an email back today about the residency. Apparently I made it to the final round of competitors for the job. They’re only hiring 12 people and I’m not sure how many people applied. Part of me doesn’t want to get it because I’m scared. Scared to be moving so fast into the future. Another part is excited for these changes that could mean having a real career in a few years. The final part of me feels I’m doing the wrong thing and just going with what’s in front of me. I’m not sure what to do. I almost passed out while making bulletin boards in my summer classroom because I was so overwhelmed.
Maybe I’m not ready for this. Or maybe I am. Maybe I just need to be pushed by these changes until I just settle into them and realize it’s not a bad deal.
I guess only time will tell.
The moral of this story is that maybe sometimes you can ace a phone interview when you still drunk at 6 am in Vegas because it just might be your destiny. Or maybe you’re just good at interviews. No matter what though, try to keep moving forward even if you’re afraid and have no clue what the fuck is going on in your life. Some direction (even as misguided of a direction as it may be) is better than no direction at all.
Jhené Aiko: Lyric Appreciation….
this is awesome ! get it . write . 🙏 I appreciate this so much , thank you for listening to my stories and reading my words ya’ll ☺️
Game of Shade
The life of a nerd in one picture.
The nerd is strong with this one
EVERYTHING I LOVE IN ONE PERFECT IAMGE
the tardis should be in the background
THE TARDIS IS IN THE BACKGROUND
So is the Impala
I SEE SHERLOCK
NO BUT WOODY AND BUZZ ON THE BACK OF THE CAR THOUGH
Doctor Who’s Quinquagenary → Regeneration
"Cardinal Rassilon has been researching a method of regenerating diseased and decaying tissue. Via a series of permanently carried self-replicating biogenic molecules, the cells of a Gallifreyan body can be repaired, restored, and reorganized. This will result in a whole new physical form. The brain cells will similarly be rearranged, although to a lesser degree, thus ensuring the new incarnation will replicate the memories and personality of the former incarnation. Cardinal Rassilon intends for this method to only be used upon the Gallifreyan elite. He has also inputed a parameter of twelve regenerative cycles to avoid decaying biogenic molecules." - The Recorder, Zagreus
"I can still die. If I’m killed before regeneration, then I’m dead. Even then, even if I change, it feels like dying. Everything I am dies. Some new man goes sauntering away… and I’m dead.” - Tenth Doctor, The End of Time
Perfect. Just perfect.