I’d be a lying fool if i said i didn’t miss you all. You’ve made me happier than i can even think of. You’ve made me a better and more understanding person…and for that i thank you.
I’ve always thought that college was strictly an academic learning experience. You’ve taught me that this is a lie. We learn more than how films were started, or who was a major artist, and even what a famous novel truly means. You learn how to be yourself, not because your forced to create a persona like in high school, but because the people you surround yourself with teach you how to act. They show you how bad of a drunk you are, how great of a writer you are, and even how amazing of a friend you can be.That truly is college…and I don’t care what those frat boys say.
No matter what some may say, you can truly understand what the world has to offer you because your collegiate companions show you what it is. The world is, and may always, be a corrupt place. But you have to enjoy it for what the little things have to offer. Those moment sitting in your friends room listening to music: Cherish them. I once did not until i came home and realize that…it won’t happen for a few months. Even the times where you have to write a final essay and your surrounded by your amigos in the library/study lounge, and all you do is talk about Pokemon. Have fun because someday it will not be there. That’s what change is, so you have to cherish it. So please, for me, enjoy it.
What i miss most are the times we all went to the campus center and ate Wendy’s together, even though I’ve started to resent Wendy’s after so many meal swipes…I still enjoyed those moments because of you all. Its really depressing seeing you all go and realizing it will be so long since we are together again. If i could go back to October…I would.(No matter how bad that month was at first.
Fuck all the heartbreak and depression. I’d do it all again for you guys.
Even the people I’ve barely seen all year(Even the ones transferring), you don’t understand how much it has affected me. Our random encounters, conversations, laughs, drunken conversation, etc..mean so much to me. It has caused me to understand that even though we’ve know little about each other…we still had a connection. For that i thank you. I thank you because without you i wouldn’t understand the importance of friendly relationships. I wouldn’t even try to keep them alive had it not been for the great times, but now i know they matter. Your friendship means so much.
To all the women of my past. The heartbreaks have helped me understand what true feelings are. You’ve caused me to believe that love is more than common coincidence or simple irony. Its about what feels right and true. I couldn’t have done it without you, and for that i do not have negative feelings…only hope. Hope that my future is brighter than the darkest night(Green Lantern reference, sorry).
For my Albany friends.(People I’ve encountered of random happenstance, orientation introduction, fencing related meeting, rooming situation, or simply just having a class together) I hope you understand your importance in my life. You are great people. You’ve shown me who I am and what want to be. I miss you dearly and every night away from that campus is not the same. The days I spend walking through NYC do not compare to what you have given me. I anticipate very highly the idea of living on Clinton of Colonial Quad next semester..and you honestly bring me to life.
Had it not been for you…
…I would probably be dead on the Danes Football Field.
Also, to my friends of the past who i still love more than anything: Thank you for being you. Thanks for supporting me in this academic war of the past year, and I’ll see you in a few days. I love you and i can wait until the summer has officially begun.
I hope everyone has a fulfilling year. To all of you in relationships: Enjoy your partner’s presence, its the best you can ask for. To the single roamers: Enjoy the free time, and care for those around you. For the depressed: Cheer up, life is more than stored up chaos. The little thing are all worth smiling for. And for the living, school-free, or simply anyone who cares enough: Enjoy the summer. Its a needed break for all the work and hassle school has offer. You deserve it very much so,
I hope you all have a great summer and understand how much i care for you. Its been a while since i’ve written a tumblr post like this, but i hope its enough. I hope you can truly enjoy it.
If anything, send me a question or simply just talk to me. I love hearing how things are going because you are honestly my life.
For now…I love you and I’ll see you soon. <3
Fireworks went off near the SEFCU Arena today for the opening game of one of our sports teams. I find it intriguing how convenient fireworks can be. As we watched the explosions go off I couldn’t help but notice that for that one moment…nothing else mattered. For those few minutes all we cared about was watching the light show. It’s amazing how little fantastical things can make you forget about the grandest of problems. I started the day in a confused mood, but dressing nicely made me feel better. I’ll take the fireworks as a positive moment.
“Caring for someone is being able to let them go because you know they’re happy with someone else.”
If this is true then why don’t I feel that way? I know he makes you happy, but he treats you like shit. You know this but you’re too blinded by love to just leave. But I can’t stand the idea of ruining that for you because he really does make you happy. So if letting to is what it takes…I’ll try and move on.
I don’t really like certain secrecies. For example, if you care about someone very much, I feel like you should instantly tell them how you feel because it’s honest and people should really respect that. The fact that you’re willing to let them know should be a sign of courage worthy of appreciation. If you don’t have the courage to tell someone how you feel, then why care for them at all? That’s why I would prefer if people told me true things openly, no matter whether it be positive or negative. Truth just leaves more time for acceptance. And this is one very interesting truth I believe in.
I still don’t understand. I have a Mohawk right now. The things I do when I’m feeling courageous and don’t care too much. It feels so different but in a good way. Might think about keeping it….
“I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always “wrong”, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when “you’re” around, and the fact that you “do” call. But mostly I hate the way I “do” hate you, even close… a little bit… at all. ”
I love changing movie quotes to fit my needs. Every word in quotation marks is changed. I fucking hate you’re optimism and one tracked mind towards whatever the he’ll we are. It makes me sick. I want you out of my life but you’re always fucking there. I hope that scumbag makes you happy cause i really don’t give a single fuck anymore. Enjoy the spousal abuse in a few years, I hope it was worth it. This is the sound of me no longer giving a single flying fuck. And trust me, that nonexistent fuck is a Pegasus.
