Love. Its one of those things you raised with. Its a feeling I’ve come to understand is now limited to many, but was once whole in everyone. I have many people to thank for making me the person I am today. Without the love of others, I wouldn’t be alive today.
I can’t say I grew up in a perfect family, but every family is dysfunctional in some way. My parents have their flaws, but its only through those flaws that i truly know that their human. My mother, no matter how physically far she is from me now, will always be part of my heart, life, love, soul, mind, and world. No matter what people may think, say, or imply, I will ALWAYS love my mother. My father had a rough past. He grew up in a tough neighborhood at the time, but lived. He went on to the Marine Corps and may be seen as aggressive nowadays, but it made him the father I look up to now. The important thing is that he never backed down on me, just as my mother hasn’t either. You may believe Superman, Obama, or Taylor Lautner are your heroes. I tell you now. My ONLY heroes in this lifetime, are my parents. I would rather die now, then not have them in my life forever.
My bother. What can I say. He could be the most Bipolar person in the world, I still love him. He has been the only person in this world who understands my philosophy on life entirely. Without him, I wouldn’t be able to tell you who directed Inception, nor would I be able to right you an A+ essay on the psychology of Dexter. Without him, there is no me. I will always love you, even if we fight like we’re paid to do it. You may not read this, but its because I fear you will not want me to leave you in a month.
My friends. We’ve been through some funny, sad, hard, long, and exhilarating times. To that, I now Salute You. Without you guys(and girls) I would be not even one inch the person I am today. My random thoughts, my useless knowledge, and my ability to cope with life, would be at an all time low. You are the reason I got through this treacherous year i know as 2010. Remember when I said I only had my parents listed as Heroes? I lied. You are also my heroes, my sidekicks, my “more than five” Musketeers, my partners in crime, my brothers, my sisters, my Life. I don’t write to impress critics or get an Oscar. I write to impress you guys, and to show you that my inspiration to write comes only from the great energy I find in you every second of our time together. Love is an understatment.
My Self. You are nothing. You are simply a creation formed by every aspect, of every person I formerly mentioned. Thank all these people. They are you. The next time you meet, tell them how you feel, write them a letter, make them a poor attempt of a cake, give them a hug, give them yourself, show them your true form. Be You.
In the end, Love comes in many forms. I write this today, directly from my mind. I didn’t make a first draft. I just typed on this portal in hope that it would reach into you eyes.
To my parents. I Love You more than you will both ever know, and I want you to know that nothing will ever change this. To my friends. Live life the way you have shown me. Be happy, spread the love, and everything else will follow. Thanks for everything you’ve done for me. To myself. Avoid the writer’s block you have made into your hobby, get a job, but most of all….Enjoy the little things. It is through all those little things that you find true friendship, happiness, and Love.
Thanks To You All. From the core of the deepest part of my long beating heart.
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Nick Twisp From Youth in Revolt
Ah. Its moments like these in literature that make you realize how great nature and life can be. We tend to see the true beauty in everything when someone or something gives us a moment of happiness. In Nick’s case, Sheeni Saunders has just given him love. (Beautiful quote, even though he ends this phrase in a pretty “random” way)
A writer is anyone who creates a written work, though the word usually designates those who write creatively or professionally, as well as those who have written in many different forms.
Any dictionary would give you this or some varying definition, but I ask you this “Who or what is a Writer?”
In my sense of perception, a Writer is not only an artist of words, but a creator of worlds. A God among men. He/She releases ideas from their subconscious and brings you to a new place. They make you believe you have just entered Narnia, or fell into Wonderland. Mere men cannot bring your mind to places like these. It takes imagination, creativity, skill, and wit to force you into feeling anger, sadness, happiness, and love. The tears you shed for your recently deceased hero not only feel real, but are real.
Shakespeare shows us love in such a form that death is the only way Romeo and Juliet can truly be together. Quentin Tarantino gives us True Romance, filled with danger and pain, but in the end, it only brings our protagonists closer together. Two entirely different forms of writing, yet both express the same idea. Love. This is why Writer’s are more than “Creator’s of written work”.
The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say. ~Anaïs Nin
This quote is true in many ways. Writers not only exist to show us a new universe, but also to give us a piece of themselves, and ourselves. Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature. Obviously, he used all his anger/sadness/guilt of these lost loves to write many novels. In these novels, he shows us how he truly felt for these women, and gives us example of why we should not be like him.Through his example, we alter ourselves. We mold our personalities into the perfect persona’s. He doesn’t blatantly give us these deeper meanings, he makes us find them through his word choice.
The Dexter novel’s and tv series are another great example of what Writer’s use their talents for. Dexter is a killer. Simple. The world sees killers as monsters, demons, yet every Sunday you watch one in depth and enjoy it. Why bring this up you ask?….Because Dexter is one of us, a Human. He does what many people wish they could do. He has a normal job, a family, and a long list of morals….but rids the earth of the filth on necessity. With writing, you root for him to live forever, no matter how many people he murders. Writer’s forge what you think is wrong in reality, into something you adore in fiction. They cause you to believe Ex-President Bush is a bad man, that Avatar is the greatest film ever imagined, and that the bible was written through inspiration from a higher being(Not that I’m saying any of this is possibly false).
That is a Writer. Someone who makes you feel, react, think, change, believe, deny, exist, create, endure, but most of all…….Follow in their example. They inspire you whether in the form of a play, novel, script, newspaper, painting, chord book, or speech.
Everything is writing. Only true Writers see the world like that. Anyone one has the will to awaken themselves to this thought.
I have……..Will you do the same?
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Troy Dyer (Reality Bites)
Lifes not about our search for a deeper meaning. Its about enjoying the little things. Whether it be a Quarter-Pounder with cheese or spending time with the people you love, those are the things that make life….Life. Embrace it. Enjoy it. Cherish it. Through that, you achieve true happiness and in the end, you just might find that deeper meaning you were eagerly searching for.
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By Yours Truly
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Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground by The White Stripes
There’s something about this song that just makes me happy and sad at the same time. This image of sadness contrasting happiness because of a loved ones presence is astounding. Jack White has a great way with words and his lyrics always have emotion, something that many musician are missing today.
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Kat Stratford (10 Things I Hate About You)
Great quote and great movie, even though stuff like this only happens in the movies.
Not too long ago I promised myself I would avoid writing something like this, but it seems like something right to do.
It seems almost like destiny that we were all meant to meet. Who knew we would all grow to be such great friends, in so little time. Both a gift and curse because now we prepare to leave each other with tears in our eyes. This is only for the better though, and for that we must be happy.
I can see it already. 10 years from now, we’re all in some Japanese restaurant. All of us have become successful in our desired career, have families that love us, and have no financial issues. But that’s not the important part. We’re all happy. Happy to still be great friends. Happy to be around each other. Even if by some miraculous, crazy random happenstance we were to spontaneously combust, we would still be joyful of spending our last moments together. One big happy family.
That’s what we are. A Family. And family’s don’t say goodbye. They say hello. Even if we don’t communicate for another millennium, its what we must always say. This is because we know that even in the far reaches of space, we will always be together.
I would suffer the pain of the past year over again but tenfold, just because it led me to all of you. That’s how much you all mean to me. I hope the feeling is mutual. Actually, no. I know the feeling is mutual, because you have shown me so.
I think of all our times together, and it always ends with tears of happiness. And this is the truth. Scout’s Honor. The failed attempts at a bbq, followed by the successful ones. The small adventures in St. Marks. The emasculating karaoke. The intense sports activities. The random conversations. The Movies Theater hangouts. The conquering of roller-coasters(Physical and emotional). The music. The overall Love. *Tears*
I apologize to those of you who believe i was a little distant this summer. Its been pretty rough, but know that it is only because of you that i have survived.(As i know has been the case for others as well.)
To one specific person i made my feelings known this summer. Its something I felt necessary. I’d like to apologize for the distance I may have kept from you as well. It seemed only right, being as we had so little time left. I still have these feeling, but its something i must endure for the greater good of our lives. And I’m alright with that. Just seeing your happiness is good enough for me. Whether the feeling is mutual or not.
To everyone else, I love you too. Simple. I can sit here and write a book on this love for you, but I think you already know every single thing that will be written on those pages. Love. Love. Love.
Some family gave me parting words of advice this weekend. The most inspiring, was that of my grandfather. As he laid in his bed he told me,”I want to see you successful before i go”.
Before I thought of answering with a stupid “Where are you going?”, it hit me. A storm of “What ifs”. What if while I’m gone, he passes? What if I’ll never see him again? What if I’m leaving to soon? What if I’m abandoning my family?
These thoughts made me cry. Something I haven’t done in years. My father reassured me that its something I must do…..and its not the last time i will see him.
Not too long ago, I found out my parents were getting a divorce. Even more recently, I found out that it was all because of a plan to get my parents to separate. To make a long story short. People felt my parents were to good together, and wanted to sabotage that. Apparently it worked. My parents are still friends, but know they can no longer remain together. Its also been made aware to me that people want to prove that my brother and I are useless, therefore adding on to the problems of my parents.
Well you know what I think? Good.Fucking.Luck. Just to spite the assholes who destroyed my family, I’m gonna succeed. I’m gonna change the world only because you believe I have no shot in life. Matter of fact. I already have, with a little help from my friends.
That’s my story. It may have been randomly thrown in here, but it felt necessary to give you some character background.
Now,……..Back to this whole farewell business. The next time I hear final goodbyes, I will be very upset. You may say goodbye, but I say Hello. Hello to all the new experiences you have brought and WILL continue to bring me. Hello to a new chapter of our lives. Hello. Hello. Hello.
I Love you all and wish you the best. I will always remember and cherish our moments together. I hope you will do the same.
See you later, and have a nice vacation. ;)
It feels like it’s been forever since I last posted something on Tumblr, almost like my mind wasn’t letting me write until I finally was back at 100%.
It’s only now that I’m starting to understand life. “Great Life and the Pursuit of Happiness”. I was blind to the complexities the world showed me, but now I think I finally get it. I’ve been through an interesting year full of ups and downs. Excuse my use of cliché examples, but my life truly has become a roller-coaster, preferably El Toro if I had to make a choice.
I learned pain, “love”, true friendship, and what it really means to be one with the universe. I quoted love because it’s something I no longer believe in. I refuse to believe in it. If love exists, why are so many people hurt by it? Why is the divorce rate increasing? Maybe love did exist, but the human race has killed it. Now it remains as an old concept like Latin or Greek Mythology. I hope someday to find the prehistoric definition of “love” I once believed, and bring it back to life.
Too many people I know have felt pain in this one year, and it hurts me to see this. Promise me you’ll hold on. This world is definitely worth living in, even if sometimes is knocks you down. If bot for yourselves, do it for me.(And yes I will be selfish if it means you’ll hold on)
It was only through the events in this past year that I was able to learn what I want to do with my life. I want to travel the world. I want to learn real greatness, but I can only do this by leaving everything behind. Home. Familiarity. I don’t want to do this as an escape because honestly, I admire the people I’m surrounded by in my life. Your all amazing, but I want to see pure beauty, not artificial beauty. You we’re all built into the great personalities I’ve come to love, but I want to see something that originally was great (or at least isn’t living or moveable, like the Louvre or Florence)
Right now I’m just living for tomorrow. I’m learning what I can, so that the possible children I have can understand the world for what it is, not what they we’re mislead to believe.
As Maroon 5 said, “It’s not always rainbows and butterflies. It’s compromise that moves us along.”
I don’t intend to disappear off the face of the earth, although it may come across as so in this post. I just want to become a sort of Alexander Supertramp, but instead I want to live and return with a lifetime of experiences. I still care about many of the people I’ve met in life, and trust me, our paths will cross again in the future. I just want to learn greatness, and then teach it. Your all part of this greatness. That’s life, isn’t it. We run into all these supporting characters who define us. Life isn’t our actions or how much money we make, it’s the people who make it worth enduring. When you start believing this, you are truly being one with the universe.
Also, I know this post just seems out of control and unstable, and for that I’m sorry, but that’s my nature. I can’t organize my thoughts, I can just release them into the wild.
Thank you again for actually caring. You cannot fathom how much it really means. There is so much more I can say right now, and I most likely forgot to mention an epic poems worth of things, but all I can say right now is… Be Strong. Be strong for the future.
1) I want to tell you how much you really mean to me, not in writing or in the form of a creative gift, but in person with real words that show true emotion.
2) I’d like to tell my parents they made no mistakes in raising me. Any flaw developed in me was set by the corruption in this world. I want them to know that although they are not together anymore, through my eyes they we’re perfect for each other, so perfect that others we’re jealous of them and could not live to see them happy.
3) I want to tell the antagonists of my life that they will never break me. The small setbacks they throw at me are just challenges that make me stronger everyday. You will never ever in a goddamn fucking millennium have a negative impact on my life. I’m stronger than that, because my parents raised me to be like this and if it’s the last thing I do, I’ll prove you wrong and make them proud.
4) I’ll tell you to enjoy the little things because they matter most. Don’t fall in “love” with a person for their looks, their bank account, or because you share a few common interest, like music. Remember, everyone loves music. Find those things that sets them apart from the rest of the world. Its the people who enjoy the little things you do that matter. Like those moments so great that you feel like your in a movie, the ones that seem to fall into a beautiful symphony. Thats what I think you should know, cause money and looks don’t buy happiness, the little things do. Like sunsets or that one line in a book that always made you smile.
5) I would like to warn you to forgive and forget. Life, although you may not believe it, is too short. Why waste away your days with hateful thoughts? Your just wasting time that could be spent making wonderful memories. So she broke your heart, and he lied when he said he loved you. True revenge is when you show them how great you can do without their help. That is the best way to live.
6) I’d like to tell them I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not being a better son. I’m sorry I rarely told you how much you really meant to me, and how you are my heroes. I’m sorry I can’t help you when I know your both going through a big deal of pain in life. I’m sorry that every time I look at you I hurt inside because I feel I’m the reason why you are suffering so much. I’m sorry that I left you two, even if you tell me you wanted me to get away from it all and experience life. I’m sorry because it pains me to see you like this so much, that I had to selfishly leave you to suffer alone. I wish I was strong enough for both of you. I wish I could tell you everything was going to be fine in the end, even if I know it won’t be. And most of all, I wish you could see these tears I’m shedding right now, so you’d know how much I truly love you both. I really do, even if I rarely show it. I’m sorry.
7) I’d be honored to tell you that I’m Batman. I may not wear a cape or run a billion dollar company, but I care about certain things enough to stand for them. Everyones a hero in they’re own way. Be a hero, because even if you don’t gain something from it, someone else will. Trust me, I’m Batman.
8) I caution you not to live in a dream. It’s nice to have many hopes and aspirations, but living in the shadow of what you want to achieve doesn’t help you in actually achieving. Living in movies doesn’t help you in finding love and success. Take me for example. I’ve watched so many films in my lifetime, that my perception of the real world has been skewed. I believe love is like fairytales, I think someday I’ll be able to travel through time in my Delorean, and I feel that this world is perfect. These are of course not true. Love is more like Vegas, you either win big or lose bigger. Time travel, as you can see from current news, is looking farther away each day. And the world is clearly not perfect(Hence enjoying the little things like #4 already informed you). Understand that no matter how well scripted your life may seem, you have to make a difference. You can’t just sit back and see what happens. You need make you life into something all on your own, or with a little help from your friends.
9) I truly wish I could’ve been a better friend to you all. I feel as though I’ve held you away from many great experiences. I sometimes wonder how your lives would have been without me in them. Maybe you’d all be happier, or maybe just the same. Either way ,I’m glad I was given the opportunity to live with you all. I thank you for letting me take part in your lives because you’ve made me the person I am today.
10) I want to tell you everything about me, not because of the attention, but because it would show you how much I really do care.
I thank you again for reading through my random thoughts because it shows me that I’m not alone, nor will I ever be :)
